I’m so sorry that you have to deal with this shit, and I wish there was something I could do or say to make it better. I say that from a place of privilege and could never fully grasp what you have to deal with in a country of deep rooted systemic racism.

I moved to San Diego from Tennessee for similar reasons. Although I know I don’t deal with what you do on a daily basis, I knew it existed and couldn’t stand to be around it. I found my own disgust with the human race making me a very miserable person, so I moved out here hoping for more.

I found that yes, I can relate to more people here, but those weak-minded people that are easily brainwashed by our political crisis are everywhere. Southern California is more conservative than I ever imagined, and severely lacks diversity.

Some days I dream of retreating to a cabin in the woods and never dealing with society again. Anyway, I’m sorry there seems to be no safe place for you out there, but you have a home here on Medium if you want it. Welcome!